Just not feeling that great

Well the good news is I haven't had a pain episode since Friday afternoon. The bad news is I just don't feel good. I am sure it has something to do with these shots, but not sure if it is because I need more shots or less. The shots are normally given to carcinoid patients, which I am not, so I can't go by the usual symptoms that patients take the "rescue" shots as they call them. I feel like I could throw up, I have that hot feeling running from my liver area into my right arm and feel feverish. I pray the cancer is not growing. I pray it is just from the shots, or not enough shots or whatever else, maybe just from chemo. Thanks for the comments and prayers, they really are helping me. Thanks for burning your cancer kickin candles. Maybe that's what it is, the cancer going away leaving my body. The truth is I am terrified that I am getting close to the end. I don't even want to waste time doing mundane stuff, it's as if every second counts, literally.

I am also really depressed again, I should be happy I have life, but I am at the "it's not fair" stage again, I am trying to figure out why me, and why my family. I hate that I am putting so many people through the sadness my diagnosis brings