The Plan

Norm talked to Dr Benson late last night. After going thru every possible treatment they could and could not or would not give me, it was decided to put me back on the 2nd chemo I had, folfori. I only had 2 rounds of it before surgery and then we moved on to neurondocrine treatment after the surgery. Even though the Dr still feels this is not colon cancer, he is going to be giving me chemo for colon cancer because I had shrinkage on the first chemo which was also for colon cancer so he is hopeful that we will see good results with this one. The Dr had done his homework and gave us a couple more options for treatment so at least we know they are there, he even checked into a few clinical trials at univ. of chicago if we wanted to go that direction. He also said if I tolerate this new chemo, then after 30 days he would definitely consider strongly doing radiation on the tumor in my pelvis that is near my bladder. he feels that is where all my pain is coming from. So, I have that to look forward to, because if he is right, it would be so great to be pain free, I can do anything as long as I know how long it is for, so 30 more days of this pain, I can and will get thru. I still feel as if the pain is coming from my colon. Note the time, this pain has kept me up last night and now again tonite. My back and hips feel as if they are being torn from my body.

So, at least we have another option, I hope this chemo has minimal side effects and I can tolerate it well. We will be doing most of the treatments in Decaur with a Dr, that Dr benson has worked with from there, so the traceling less will be a huge help, especially since this pain really kicks up in the car.

I pray that we have found yet another way to keep me kicking, and I am thnkful for this option. I am learning that I really need to give my Dr a little more praise after all he is the specialist so I need to rely that he will give us our best options. It will be great to have a local oncologist to deal with day to day things that come up as well. Thank you for your continued prayers and well wishes. They are what is keeping me going.

I am also thankful that Norm talked to the Dr, as Norm has much more patience than I do, and I get so confused and get stuck on one word and hear nothing else, so this way Norm can reexplain it all to me. I am really noticing some problems in my brain. Forgtfullness, and not being able to remember simle words, I can see them but can't say them for nothing.

I did get 4 of the tie fleece baby blankets done yesterday. It was nice to have distraction from the day to day, and even if I am not here, my grandbabies will have a blanket made by NaNa to keep them warm.

Thank You God for giving me this day.