Friday, April 25, 2008

And the beat goes on

My mind has calmed a little, I am again looking for the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. I am trying to find the positives in this. At least we found out what it is I have, at least now we can go for the right treatments. I have read of so many tests that would have told us this is the kind of cancer I have had. I haven't had any of those tests but I will now demand those tests. norm has been in contact with the only specialist in Illinois that deals with neuroendocrine cancer. The Dr wants pathology report, surgical slides, lab reports, reports from these tests we should have had, so I will spend Monday trying to pull this stuff out of the Dr's in St Louis. We will schedule an appt with this Dr and then only after we have talked to him and are assured at what we are really looking at will we make a decision on what to do next.

I apologize for being so down in my last post, sometimes it's just where cancer takes me and sometimes I am at the bottom of the barrel and can't see the top. I am sure some of you think, what a whiner, well I am sorry for that but it's just where I am at. I want so badly to fight this disease and I need to have the right tools to do it.

God has provided so many miracles, and me being alive today is one of them. I am thankful for life and intend on living for a long time to come. I have a wonderful family supporting me and I intend on giving back to them even if only in a smile and a hug.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I love your titles for your blogs. you should have been an author. please please Tami don't give up the fight now. you have gotten so far with this. I don't know anyone that is as strong as you. and as always call me with whatever we can do for you. God has put in in this position because he knows that you can handle this. Barb and Dale