Hello all

Hello blog world, well it's 11pm on a Sunday, probably the worst time of the week, the weekends over, any fun or excitement I had this weekend has dwindled away. Everyone is asleep or heading to bed shortly, the work week is about to take off and I am just alone, so I figured I'd come post more randomness.

I was thinking about this blog the other day, and the fact that I have not changed much about what Tami set up sometime ago when she began her fight. And I was thinking that maybe it would be misleading if someone new came along and started reading it only to see where it is at now.

Now lets say even if I wanted to edit the description of the blog that I could, what would I put, I dont think anything but what Tami wrote fits any better. At first thought you might think that she lost the battle, and certainly she was taken away from me, all of us, but I like to think she won it the only way she could. She beat cancer the only way she could in the fact that it no longer causes her pain or makes her suffer.

I would hope that this blog would give others strength and hope, even though its outcome isn't the best case scenario, sometimes things just dont work out the way we want them to. I know that she has given me so many gifts to move forward in life.

So there you go, some random musings once again, sitting here alone and thinking about everything and nothing at all.

Good Night All, and have a good week...

Patrick Swayze and other random musings....

We lost yet another one, I am sure everyone heard about Patrick Swayze of course. It should just be an eye opener to everyone how deadly and how little we really know about cancer. I still feel bad, when someone mentioned Patrick Swayze way back when, how terrible it was he had cancer, and I would say something like I wish we had all his money to deal with it, it didn't help him, and after his TV special when he talked about his ordeal and how it mirrored Tami's I knew that money doesn't buy love, or life.

Fun Patrick Swayze Memory

So I'm doin pretty good, I feel like I really mad a big turn at 6 months, as well as some things I have read and just all the self-reflection my free time allows. The big thing is what do I want to do with this part of my life, dwell on sadness or turn my attention towards taking what good I can from everything and make a better person out of myself. I think the second one sounds better. That has nothing to do with forgetting Tami or anything like that, that would never happen, but I need to take her advice, and move forward, find people and things to channel myself in. I asked Nancy at work if I could run next year, so next year I will do the Bloomington to Peoria run for St Jude again, I want to be active in the fund raising and make a difference. On that note, Sept 28 is "The Big Day" at all Chilli restaurants, all proceeds from that day go to St Jude's so treat yourself to dinner or lunch that day.

Anyways, as I said I am doin good, work has been hectic, but thats good for me, I made a freind or 2 and its good to talk with someone my age and that can relate to me on an adult level, not that I would trade my discussion of the Bloomington sewage treatment plant with McKayla and Korban for the world, but you know, a freind is a nice thing to have.

You also might have noticed I am not updating every weekend, I am trying to break my cycles, to do things when I feel like it, not because I scheduled it. Anyways, thanks to everyone that stops by and leaves a comment of support, its all really appreciated even still.